Rusty

I gave my first Sharing Time in several years today. To a primary I have subbed in three times. Needless to say, I was very rusty.
Thankfully, it went better than my first sharing time in Michigan, but only barely.
I am sticking with the idea that they got better as I got to know the Primary children in Michigan, so hopefully they will improve as I get to know the kids here.

It just topped off a day of feeling a little useless and stressed.
Teachers not showing up...music missing...teachers late (at least they came)...my 1st counselor out of town... when does sharing time end?...maybe I was called to this job because my kids are the most rambunctious and they thought I could get them under control...why does Adrienne want to sit on my lap now, when I couldn't get her to do it 10 minutes ago in Sacrament Meeting?...Oh, didn't know I was supposed to do that...Forgot to tell the Bishop about this... Where did my brain go?

Argh!!

But... then there was the "Who is that?" moment. Yep, a girl who hasn't come to Primary regularly for over a year because of various issues.
It made my day!

When I left Michigan, I had a PPI with the Bishop there. He asked me what I learned while I was serving in Primary and what I would have done differently if I had the chance.
I told him that my only regret was that I wished I would have made a greater effort to get to know the children on an individual level (even though that is WAAAAAY outside my comfort zone).
Little did I know that I would get the opportunity to try again in four short years.
That is supposed to be the focus, I keep telling myself. My job is to show them they are loved and welcomed in Primary...
even if I am completely stressed out, nervous and rusty.

I guess you just try again next week right?

At least sharing time is over, for now.